i am a girl

I am a girl. I am afraid. I am afraid of the dark, not because of the fairytale demons but because of men. I am afraid of that teenage boy who always wait at the square near the speed breaker and gives a sinister smile whenever my scooty passes from over it. I am afraid of that professor who asks me to come in his cabin after the class for better comprehension of the topic. I am afraid of that friend who asks to come for a party in a night club. I am even afraid of my cousin who often comes at home when I am alone.

I am a girl. I don’t follow the ordinary 24-hour clock. I follow the rape-clock. In that clock the day ends at 6 pm not at 12’o clock midnight. I have to finish my all outside work before that. I don’t follow the normal fashion trends, that’s too mainstream. Isn’t it? I follow the rape-trends. Guess what, skirts above knees, crop tops, sleeveless, skinny jeans, tight kurtas and even a light makeup is a tad old fashioned in that culture. Oh I have to reach the airport as early as possible but I will not take a cab. Why? Pheww….it’s not trending in rape-trend. Don’t you know that?

I am a girl and I am guilty of it. I am guilty for having something that makes those innocent men with hairs protruding out from the top two open buttons of their shirt whistle at me. I am guilty of having a couple of male friends with whom I hang out with. Oh man….what a slut I am!! I am guilty of having fun in pub. I am even guilty of calling that plumber at home when the tap stopped working. I should have waited for my father to come.

I am a girl. I am modest. I don’t shout at or hit that passenger who ‘accidentally’ happens to trip on me every now and then, because I don’t want to create a scene. Also, I have to take the same route while returning also when it would be probably dark. Accidents happen all the time. Don’t they? By the way there is a good news, I got a promotion. Ohh you guessed it! Yeah, I slept with the boss for it.

I am a girl. I am afraid BECAUSE of it. I am judged BECAUSE of it. I am guilty OF it.